This is the first time I can honestly say I’m starting a review and have no idea what rating I want to give it. I think maybe I need to work out my feelings as I’m typing and hopefully will figure it out by the end…
The blurb for this caught my eye:
Love is like an avalanche. It hits hard, fast and without mercy.
At least it did for me when Sculpt, the lead singer of the rock band Tear Asunder knocked me off my feet. Literally, because he’s also a fighter, illegally of course, and he taught me how to fight. He also taught me how to love and I fell hard for him. I mean the guy could do sweet, when he wasn’t doing bossy, and I like sweet.
Then it all shattered.
I was alone and fighting to survive.
When I heard Sculpt’s voice, I thought he was there to save me.
I was wrong.
After reading the blurb I thought I would be reading a dark erotica book, which is something I’ve read and enjoyed by other authors. In dark erotica the reader has to go in knowing that there will be bdsm in an extreme way. Most dark erotica has pain and scenes that will make any average romance lover wince, but if it’s told well the reader comes away with the sense that all parties involved enjoy and in some cases even need this kind of sexual relationship. This is not a genre that works for all people, in fact even I balked before reading my first book. But I soon found that in some cases, when written by a talented author these type of stories can be very compelling. This is not that type of book.
Torn from You was all over the place. It seemed to me that the author tried to throw in everything that might appeal to readers of any genre. The hero, Sculpt (or Logan if the name Sculpt is too ridiculous for you to take serious), is not only an up and coming rock star, but he’s also an underground fighter. Who drives a motorcycle. And is alpha and likes to be in control in the bedroom. The heroine, Emily, is a not so pretty (at least she thinks so anyway) girl who reaches out to him to help her learn to defend herself. She’s had an awful childhood, with a mother who apparently has an alcohol problem and likes to demean her daughter. By the way, all of this is alluded to in the prologue, because all of that happens in a novella that was released at the same time as this book and was listed at book number .05. I really, really should have ignored the author’s note that said this could be read as a stand-a-lone and read that novella first. I think so much of this story didn’t work for me because I had no understanding of Emily and Sculpt’s relationship before it goes off the deep end.
What begins as a sweet, sexy encounter between Sculpt and Emily soon turns into a nightmare when in the first chapter she wakes up in a cold, bare room tied up and helpless. Then before she knows it there are men who come in and molest and beat her. That’s when she hears Sculpt’s voice and thinks he’s there to rescue her. Only he isn’t. From there she is taken to Mexico to learn to train as a sex slave. She’s abused, surrounded by women who are being forced to engage in sexual activities against their will and tied up and used by the man who she thought loved her. All the while she is fighting mentally and physically, because THIS ISN’T WHAT SHE WANTS. She thinks things like this:
I realized it felt safer this way. My body was just an apparatus, something to be used. It had no real value any longer. I could let it go and drift away to safer pastures with my mind. Some place where no one could reach me.
Then there’s Sculpt aka Logan.
“Don’t ever think you’re safe with me. I fuck you because I need release, that’s all you can be to me.”
Then he pushed inside me.
If you keep reading you’ll learn why Logan acts the way he does in the sex slave training camp. In fact, he helps Emily escape. Not sure exactly what happens immediately after that because time jumps two freaking years and then you have a completely different story. This is what I began to think of as the “New Adult” section of the book. It’s full of Logan trying to get Emily back and telling her what was actually going on behind the scenes while she was tied up and facing the floor, afraid of being sold in a sex trafficking ring. He’s growly, and alpha and determined to repair their relationship. He’s so determined that he won’t take no for an answer and keeps following her around, texting her and getting in her face. What bothered me about this was that she was scared of him. Emily just wanted him to go away and leave her in peace. She tells him this over and over. But he just won’t leave the poor, traumatized girl alone, because they are “engraved” on each other. So after a while she gives in. I really didn’t want her to, but she does. Sigh.
Then it turns syrupy and they have lots of sex. Logan becomes all dominate again and Emily gets off on it because he’s her soul mate who helped repair her heart and tear down the Lego walls in her mind. There are lots and lots of Lego walls in her head and she’s constantly building them. We know this because Logan repeatedly warns her to stop doing it and let him in. His alpha need to dominate her in the bedroom rears its ugly head again and this time she enjoys it. I can’t tell you how much this didn’t work for me. It was hard for me to believe that this girl could go from afraid of being powerless again to letting Logan tie her up and issue her orders in a matter of weeks.
They are surrounded by a bunch of annoying, hot men and drink happy girls who like to talk about getting laid a lot. Which is usually fine by me, because I like to read about hot men and sexually confidant women. Maybe my annoyance with the two main characters overshadowed my enjoyment of the secondary characters. All I know is that there were a couple of characters who I wanted to smack upside the head, others I wanted to sit down with and have a talk about maybe slowing down on their alcohol intake and yet still others that made my head hurt when they walked onto the page. By the big, high energy, hot men charging to the rescue scene I was ready for it to all be over so I could read something else. This book is sure to appeal to many readers, it just didn’t work for me.
I think I figured it out. It was interesting enough for me to work my way to the end and not DNF, but I had so many issues that I can’t recommend. Final Grade- D