In the deserted men’s restroom at the back of Middleton Community College, Sam Keller knelt on the tile, braced his hands against Keith Jameson’s thighs, and broke his mother’s heart.
Originally published in 2010 Special Delivery is book 1 in Heidi Cullinan’s Special Delivery Series. She has revised the series and the books are now being repubbed by Samhain Publishing. I have read some other of Ms. Cullinan’s books and she has a way of pushing my sexual boundaries. I knew going into this one it would be the same because of the warning:
Warning: This story contains trucker fantasies, threesomes and kinky consensual sex.
The story opens up with Sam Keller and his miserable life. From the first chapter I wasn’t sure how I felt about Sam because he doesn’t start out as a very likable character. To put it bluntly, he is a whiner. He lives with his disapproving aunt and uncle, works in their pharmacy and goes to nursing school but doesn’t like any of it. He sees no way to change his life so he continues to plod along at an unhappy pace. He has sexual hangs up also in that he craves humiliation and submission but has no one to give it to him. The best he can do is giving a weekly blow job, in a bathroom stall, to a local straight boy.
One day while unloading pharmacy stock he meets Mitch Tedsoe. Mitch is a truck driver and is on his way through town. The pair size each other up and head to Mitch’s truck for a quicky. The sex and the force of it turn out to be the most incredible experience of Sam’s life yet ends up making him more miserable. He just had amazing sex with a man that he will never see again, or so he thinks until he realizes he left his brand new iPhone in the truck. Days later Mitch calls him back and they arrange to meet for dinner to return the phone.
The two have an incredible connection but don’t think anything is possible because of Mitch’s job and their difference in age. Sam is 21 and still in college, Mitch is older and never stays in one place. But Mitch is captivated by Sam’s depraved innocence and submissive tendencies so he offers for Sam to ride along. Sam says no because he needs to stay in school but things all change when he arrives at work to find out his aunt has video footage of Sam and Mitch’s indiscretion several days prior. Things go from bad to worse with his aunt and uncle and in a desperate move Sam calls Mitch to come pick him up. Mitch does and down the road the two go.
Mitch and Sam’s journey across the country is about more than just Sam getting away. Sam is young, immature and has no idea what he wants from life. He also has issues stemming from his mother dying. Mitch is kinky, steady and knows what he wants but is too afraid to ask for it. Mitch wants to see Sam with other men. He gets off on controlling sexual situations for his partner but, in the past, he has always screwed things up and Sam means more to him than someone to control. He is not sure how to have a stable relationship and get what he wants from it without hurting himself and Sam in the process.
Just when it seems the pair might settle well, they travel to Las Vegas and the home to Mitch’s past screw-ups. There we meet Randy a very polarizing and sort of complex character. At first Randy comes off as a selfish prick but he is someone who has been in Mitch’s life for many years and the reader slowly learns why. Randy is irreverent yet vulnerable. Mitch and Randy have never worked because they will not submit to each other, but if you add a third to that party they can both direct their attentions to that person and everything works out. Everything works out until the third realizes his use and then the men lose that person. In this case, Sam is perfect because he craves the humiliation and degradation of being used and that is exactly what Randy and Mitch need to be able to give out.
Special Delivery was a mixed bag for me. On the surface it seems like it should be a giant sex-fest but there is so much more going on. Sam, Mitch and Randy are very complicated characters. Sam and Mitch are the main couple but this is as much Randy’s story as it was theirs. The reader is set up to not like Randy at first but eventually we see what his appeal is. Sam grows on you as his story unfolds and his journey with Mitch is something really special. Mitch was my favorite of the bunch because his quiet, steady demeanour hides a serious kinky, dirty mind. Readers should be warned that this story is very graphic and has strong sexual content. I thought it perfect for what was going on with each of these characters but others may be pushed too far. Randy may not be part of the couple but he features strongly enough to be in about 50% of the book. At times his presence and attitude bugged me but is was part of the story that could not be left out.
Overall, I enjoyed this story a lot. I know from reading the blurb in book 2, Double Blind, that each of these men still have issues to resolve. Double Blind is Randy’s story but will also feature Sam and Mitch. I was impressed with Ms. Cullinan’s ability to give us real, raw sex combined with an emotional connection to these characters. Both feature strongly but balance each other out. M/M readers that don’t mind heavy kink should really give this one a try. I think they will like it. Final grade- B
‘”I like to watch the way you move when another man touches you. You look so vulnerable, and so hot, and then, when you get nervous, you look at me. Not them – me.”