Living between worlds has never been comfortable, but it’s where I’ve always fit: between human and fey, illness and health, magic and reality.
I’ve spent the last six years looking for a cure for the nameless sickness eating me up. If I believed there was one out there, I would keep searching. But there isn’t, so I’ve come back home, where my past and present tangle. Come home to live . . . and to die.
But my father insists I meet Kin. He’s a healer, and determined to help, even though I’m not so hopeful anymore. But Kin isn’t what I expected, in any way. He sees me, not my illness. He reminds me of what it’s like to be alive. And I can’t help falling for him, even though I know it isn’t fair to either of us.
Kin thinks he has the cure I’ve been looking for, but it’s a cure that will change everything: me, my life, my heart. If I refuse, I could lose Kin. But if I take it, I might lose myself.
As you can see from the above blurb Half is the story of a man part fey and part human who is living with chronic pain and illness. The fey side of him is battling his human side and slowly killing him. After traveling all over the world for the last six years in search of a cure, he’s finally come home, ready to live out what ever time he has left in the house his mother left him, surrounded by the familiar. Only his father has sent a request through his sister that he meet with one last healer. So he goes, even though the thought of getting his hopes up yet again brings him tremendous anxiety.
I have no idea how to review this book. On the one hand, I found the writing to be so, so lovely. I was drawn into this story almost immediately and read the first 30-40% straight through. Then for some reason, I hit a point where I wondered why Kin and Luca were so into each other. It almost felt like I was missing something. Their relationship moved way too fast. Strangers one minute, lovers the next. In fact, the first time they meet and go home together is all off page. There is no scene of them emotionally and physically connecting, just a hint of it at the beginning of the next chapter. For a minute I wondered if they had actually had an intimate encounter or just came home together and passed out. Later on, it is mentioned, in the context of finding a cure for Luca’s illness, that Luca had swallowed Kin’s semen, so… yeah. I think Luca and Kin’s relationship would have benefitted from more time spent getting to know each other and maybe one or two partially open door love scenes of them connecting intimately.
Then I started wondering when I would get a better handle on the world building. There are facts thrown out about the fey-like bread crumbs; they can’t stand iron, mer-people are mean and aggressive, brownies like to cook home style meals, etc… But mostly I relied on my imagination and past reading experiences to fill in the blanks. I don’t think the world was set up in a way that gave a clear vision on who the fey were, what their society looked like and how exactly Luca did or didn’t fit in with them. It was more confusing than anything.
My favorite part of Half has to be Luca’s reconnection with his sister. That and the ending, which to be honest I was not expecting. I’m kind of hoping that the ending means we will see more of these characters in this world. Maybe a deeper look into the fey world that will answer all of the questions still floating around in my head.
In the end, I can say this was an interesting read, and although I didn’t love it, I am glad I took the time to pick up something by a new author. Final grade-C
“My heart of hearts always worships you.”